new york state of mind

i’m tryna start tumblr again but not give too much of a fuck about it at the same time. cause i’m not doing tumblr for reblogs i’m doing it to read my boys’ posts and see what’s up with them. and the occasional girl entry that hits home that makes me think. which is ironic in mad ways but if you don’t think about it too much it makes sense. just leave me be and if you’re wack unfollow me simple as that.

another thing is my boy passed away recently and i’m going crazy. he was the kid that everyone respected, liked, appreciated all that kinda shit. and he was like my first legit high school friend. he made me laugh that gut bursting unbreathable laugh. whenever i was with him i felt loved cause he knew how to keep me company within a circle of kids i didn’t know at the time and he cracked the right jokes that opened me up. i always told myself that the next time you were in ny i would spit frees with you and aidan and whoever. cause i wanted to show you what i could do in a cyphe like it was the one thing i knew you would be down for. it makes me think like i gotta start taking more initiatives and doing shit that i want to do in life asap cause you never know. you really never know. i have so much more to say but this isn’t the place to say it. blair dorner rest in peace. i know you’re smiling down on us. my heart goes out to your fam. 

and i’m too lazy to switch this text post to an audio so:

pour out some liquor
have a toast for tha homies
see we both gotta die
but ya chose to go before me
and brothas miss ya while your gone
you left your nigga on his own
how long we mourn
life goes on

see you on the other side my friend