October 2011
1 post
probably my last post
i was thinking about why it is so hard for me to write sometimes on tumblr. and i came to the conclusion that the entries that i post and the shit that i say is all just words. and you know how if you see do hear or repeat anything enough times you eventually grow numb to it? i figured it applies to the words i say. the words i write on this blog. my words, the things inside my head that i believe...
July 2011
2 posts
i've been working for two weeks now and...
there’s this co-worker of mine at pb who’s pretty damn fly but i don’t know how to approach her cause i can hardly speak any korean. she keeps catching me looking at her when i’m not doing anything. i need to growwwwww sum bawlz…
short anecdote— there’s like this huge tray full of shit that she hands to me but it slips out her hand and it falls all over...
i’m tryna start tumblr again but not give too much of a fuck about it at the same time. cause i’m not doing tumblr for reblogs i’m doing it to read my boys’ posts and see what’s up with them. and the occasional girl entry that hits home that makes me think. which is ironic in mad ways but if you don’t think about it too much it makes sense. just leave me be and...
March 2011
1 post
sometimes when a girl throws out her arms for a hug, i feel like she’s giving me permission to rub my chest on her breasts. it sounds so stupid and i have no idea why i have so much to say about this topic but i do. i love when girls hug me first because i’m not really a hugging kind of guy. i like giving hugs, and i like getting hugs, but i tend to give girls a gentle little embrace...
February 2011
1 post
December 2010
1 post
i know this is terrible for me to say, but i’m so glad people are getting rejected/deferred from their earlys. it makes me feel like i’m not alone, like i’m not the only f-ing person still stuck in this college process bs. as of now i only want royce to get into plme. fighting my dude
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..whoops forgot danny had a tumblr. you too broski
edit2—
i should not...
November 2010
3 posts
distance formula
why am i so torn? i have my friends, and i have my boys. i have my best friends, and i have my girls. wow, already i am confused
why is it that when i realize someone is into me i neglect them completely, but when i find out that the same person is losing interest i suddenly try really hard to get their attention? it’s like i’m always doing the right things at the wrong times
two bros
it somehow always boils down to who i like vs who i love. i hope someday i can look back and be glad that i chose the people that i love. yet i know deep down i will regret never taking the risks
October 2010
7 posts
clowns
i get the most jealous when another guy makes you laugh. there’s nothing that can hurt me more than knowing for even a split second, somebody else has made you happy
a rush of blood to the head
i can be having the worst day. but once i see you my heart suddenly remembers how to beat again, pumping blood skywards so fast along the funnel of my neck that my pale face flushes with color as the capillaries in my cheeks pop frantically and uncontrollably at the sight of you. i cannot contain myself… i smile
can i get a witness
i like when girls start to look more and more attractive each day as i find myself falling more and more in love with their personality.
muses, ignoramuses
i like being near nice people. i don’t know why i would ever hang out with mean people. when i hang out with both nice and mean people, i end up leaving the whole group or singling out one particularly nice person and exclusively staying near that one person. ironically my closest friends are the meanest. i think its time for some new friends
my own 365 day tumblr challenge
Day 1: Stop cursing Day 2: Stop cursing
skip a few days to
Day 365: Stop cursing
i got this!
sights and sound
i had a sonogram today. thank you lord. no cancer or kidney stones. my goodness i feel so alive right now
cars and hard liquor
you make me want to act sober when i’m not. i think that means the most
September 2010
4 posts
hmmm
yay, i get mad money from my job each week. now all i need is a girlfriend!
chicken wings on straaang
seniors '11 yahoooo
when i wake up in the morning, i feel groggy. i think that’s such an excellent word to describe my mornings. it is when i stumble out of my covers and grab the nearest wall or door handle or desk corner that i am the most vulnerable. i think if somebody wanted to kill me, he or she had the best chance of doing so at 6:30 am on a weekday. superman has his kryptonite, i have my mornings. i...
1990 something
jasdl;jsklfkfjaf;fsdj;adf we were riding the same fucking kart on the ride that i shouldn’t even have rode because i tiptoed and the idiot let me in by sheer luck even though i had to be at least 60 inches or something and for the next two minutes or so i heard you screaming in my ear and you heard me scream back twice as loud and the ride ended with us laughing and crying cause the shit was...
August 2010
1 post
to you and you and you
i remember during killer season you were stressed cause of eliot and as i stood there near the shootout block watching you cry alone in the rain all i could think about was how fucking amazing you looked even with tears rolling down your face and your hair clinging to your neck and your eyeliner staining your temples and your clothes sagging from the water weight. and you looked up for one second...
updates
if anyone was wondering (probably nobody), my kidneys are in nasty shape. i eat whatever i want everyday, but then eat watermelons before i sleep. unfortunately i have fooled myself into believing that those 30 or so squares of melon will save my dying organs. it is a shame all my friends are so fat. and i am so easily coaxed into doing shit. in other news i greatly appreciate my white friends....
July 2010
2 posts
whack sawse
last march or something, i learned that my kidneys were failing me and i had to stop eating unhealthy foods. my pediatrician specifically said no sodium. the shitty thing is, all the best stuff has mad salt in it. i can’t go to the beach very often, cause if i swallow the sea water every other week i’ma die. i can’t eat cnr. i can’t eat wendy’s. omg no taco bell. and...
June 2010
2 posts
i really want to marry a white girl
unbelievable
FUCK i’m in love
May 2010
1 post
+1
today was a very special, albeit forgettable one, so i feel the need to document it in case i want to look back and remember.
first, i get to school, and i’m mad flustered cause everyone is aware that today is my birthday. i’m smiling foolishly as i walk into physics, as my teacher greets me with a ‘good morning, paul’ and i sit down. i must have participated a...
March 2010
4 posts
classic
the minute my brother comes home, what do we do? we go get some wendy’s. spicy chicken fillets don’t exist in korea, hah.
on a side note: i gave my brother a pound for the first time today. mlia rofl
… whoo. <3
homecoming!
WELCOME BACK, PETER
i missed my brother so much. it feels like the return of jay haha
Listen
high school volleyball
rapidly dying. i can’t type very fast. my eyelids are sagging a lot. didn’t touch my bookbag yet. …i love this season
February 2010
1 post
loose change
when someone asks me ‘who is your best friend?’ i take way too long to respond. and when i do respond, i say something stupid like ‘i don’t have one’ or, ‘i have a couple.’ i wish i could be more… established. i think my biggest flaw is being too stoic. it might not make sense, but i wish i cried more often and bitched at people i don’t like...
January 2010
3 posts
Listen
something new
i want to take creative writing senior year, but i hear that the class is heavily centered around poetry. i’m so bad at poetry that i want to be good at it. ever get that feeling? here is my shot at poetry. i shall improve myself until i finally take the elective, and then wow my whole class with marvelous haikus and whatnot.
CHICKEN AND RICE chicken or lamb? the thinly sliced chicken says...
“We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.”
December 2009
3 posts
Bad analogies
I now realize that those purple chopsticks you gave me for my birthday was a timeless gift that you probably put alot more time into picking out than I gave you credit for. The paint is chipping away on the edges now, and the cheap wood underneath gives off it’s own flavor sometimes.
….I’m so sorry.
You see, I’ve chilled with you too many times during our once...
1901
facebook youtube aim
imagine what my grades would be without these.
November 2009
4 posts
thanks
to everyone who has walked up to me cause i looked troubled or out of it, lent me money when i needed it for lunch, said hi before me in school when i was either looking at the floor or in the middle of conversation, made me laugh so hard i felt like my lung would erupt, laughed with me when spit and tears flew out of my face moments later, gave me the best pounds before a long break of school,...
“i realised how important studying is and if u dont get into an ivy leage college...”
ayoo:
ohpaul:
i realized that when i get home, no one talks to me on aim, no one msgs me on facebook, and my phone only rings when my parents call me. i used to have 8 i/m’s going on at once, my phone vibrating every hour from txts, and 20 facebook notifications daily. now the only time i’m recognized as a human being in this world is when my parents want to know what i want for dinner or when...
i have no friends
i realized that when i get home, no one talks to me on aim, no one msgs me on facebook, and my phone only rings when my parents call me. i used to have 8 i/m’s going on at once, my phone vibrating every hour from txts, and 20 facebook notifications daily. now the only time i’m recognized as a human being in this world is when my parents want to know what i want for dinner or when i get...
October 2009
1 post
cold as bones
the cold weather makes me really nostalgic. my freezing hands, the goosebumps on my arms, and my warm pajamas all trigger old winter memories.
i can’t wait for thanksgiving break… i need time to relax and collect myself and not sleep during classes or wake up late or say stupid things out of lack of sleep.
August 2009
1 post
used to be our favorite. daaaaamn, yo!
July 2009
2 posts
hakwon
in a few words: i started summer prep today. it is not fun. in other news, i’m learning how to drive. i am winning killer in 10 months.
the rest: i’ve been consistently sleeping at 5 in the morning for a week, and today was the first time i had to get up really early for my first day of hakwon (9 am…i know, i’m crazy). i have no friends there, but i am starting the...
Flying Horses